Saturday, November 7, 2009

while studying... took some time off...

Today is a brand new day!!!!

As i was looking out of my window, i see fogs again.. It has been like that for quite sometimes now. Ever since Norway started snowing, every morning the scene that embraces me is that of the fog shrouding over the mountain in front of my window. Quite dreamy, quite mysterious, and quite nostalgic too... Sometimes, i don't feel like waking up at all, but i couldn't continue sleeping either. Sometimes, i feel like just standing there in front my of window and glance at the sight right ahead of me. Frankly speaking, when i am staring , no thoughts cross my head, and i am suspecting that my brain is going to degenerate soon... haha!!!

Restless nights, dreamless sleep, irregular timing... Somehow, my body clock is disturbed... It wasnt jet lag, it wasnt stress, it wasnt anxiety. I wonder what it was....

As i stared at my work now, I am Wondering the purpose of my exchange. The courses and content taught is the SAME as those taught in NTU. I am not trying to be whiny, but the living expenses is high here, and i Did not learn new stuff over here. So to conclude to myself, i guess the money was spent to buy an experience for myself.. I like this freedom of independence, the ability to travel out to other countries on my own. The freedom of making choices... but i miss the times when my mom nag at me.. the presence of familiar voices and the feeling after a heart-to-heart-talk with my frens.. the feeling of liberation (from stress) is what i miss most!!! i am still trying to find the outlet to let out all my steam, my energy, my frustration, my stress, my mood, my watever!! haha...

to accomplish that, i have came up with an improvisation. Jog on the spot in my room.. :p .. alright, i am crazy, i will disturb my neighbor who is staying one level below me, i will disturb maslyn... But i really need to do something..

Over here, if the negative vibes is too strong, it will leave u often feeling vulnerable and helpless. I don have suicidal tendency one lah, i will at most get moody.. which i am currently in a state of... this sense of moodiness is slowly eating me up. I dont know what to do about it.. n listening to music doesnt help at all!! especially when its playing those sad melodies.. HAiz, to kill my moody-bacteria in me, i shall post some photos...


Ducky by the lake.. Think it was shiwang who asked mi where these ducky will go when winter approaches and the lake turned to ice... Where will they go???






The lonely guy by the lake... Was he waiting for that special someone??





Grey: none of my business

The other two dog's facebook statues: It's complicated...



It was only 3 plus pm over here when i took this photo.. it seems like night time has come..



the foggy lake...




The family on a outing... to the lake....



The birds are all flying to the other side... its really a majestic sight to see them flew all at a go!!



the ice hockey ground.. initially is was covered in stone.. but i am amazed that it was replaced by the ice!!!



Even though it was man-made, it has its own beauty too...



last emo photo before i end off the post.. hahaa...




How amazing it is to be able to capture the time in the picture... therefore the word 'timeless' appears...

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