Tuesday, December 29, 2009

travel n BACK HOME AGAIN!!!

haha im finally back home again.... somehow, i felt an intense relief when i step out of the plane in Changi....

Oslo is a good experience, but Singapore is my home, my root... though it sound cliche, but well, its kind of true.. I think i am worn out by all the travelling, its too intense, too overwhelming for someone who has never travel out often. Well, before the exchange i have only been to Johor and Korea.. Hahahaha.. travelling to many countries will sound exciting to many people. But once u embark on the journey, then u will realise, the things that happen around you. Singapore is really just a comfort zone....

Especially the last few places that we went to before we went home, make me felt more. We went to Switzerland, Berlin, Copenhagen and Tromso.

Switzerland was fun, even though it was really cold! We went to catch the swiss alps and it was really freezing cold. It was at this destination that we bought a lot of chocolates!! haha.. mi, my sis and shiwang took the chocs as though it doesnt cost anything! haha.. poor yk n mas have to shop ard while waiting for us... The Swiss Alps is really impressive. Breath taking scenery....
The mountains are covered in snow. Layers and layers of snow overlapping and covering the trees, making it the way it appear in books and photos. As i look at the Alps, somehow, i know i will go back to Switzerland again, for the skiing and also to bring my parents along.. I want to show them the way the world looks like, for they have given mi the chance to look at it first...


After all the crazy shopping in Switzerland, we proceeded on to Berlin. My main aim was to go to the concentration camp. The place where millions were killed, so long as they were considered to be less superior than the Germans, and deviates from the society norms... Stepping inside, u could see all the photos on display. The whole place is full of information and photos to explain the situation in the concentration camp. They displayed some of the victims as well as the mastermind behind the whole ploy...
We went to the infirmary. It was where all the victims received their 'medical treatment'. They werent treated appropriately. The captives were just animals for testing. What i could remember as totally inhumane was when they scan the patients to check for tooth with gold or any other types of fillings. The main aim was to extract their teeth. Not only was their identity been removed like normal criminals, they were subjected to this kind of treatment. Not many survived such ordeal. As i walk on the route within the camp, i recalled them having to work in such cold weather conditions in scantily dressed. I am dressed in layers, i could still feel my feet freezing. And the extreme cold...... This is the removal of human identity to the lowest form that could ever exist!
In one of the room in infirmary, where they check and execute the action on those victims, i could feel something. The pictures, the motions all circulating in my mind. The pain, the helplessness, the thought of home, a sanctuary, of rescue...... And u wonder, how could one person did all these to another human? how could one's mind be so evil? how could one bear looking at another suffering in pain n torture? While viewing the room, my sis actually commented the room smelled like those chemicals that were used to deal with dead bodies... Well, this kind of scare my friends...I'm affected since i could actually feel it....
it was too much... too much for these people to live in years of hell..... i didnt take any photos in the camp site, coz i felt the place was too sacred to take any photos.... the whole place is very solemn, the air is heavy and thick. It just make you feel sad...
when i left, the place is so full of agony, sadness, gloominess.....

In Copenhagen, it was more of a test against the cold... We walked alongside a harbor. The wind was really strong and i guessed it was strong enough to be able to blow us away!!! all the pain was for a mermaid statute that was their landmark.. hhaha... it was really freezing, mi n shiwang were shivering with cold..... face and hands were red.... we were quite glad tat we are only stayin for one night in the airport.. haha.. there is really nth much to do dere anyway... but it looks similar to norway even though they were actually different countries....

Tromso! the northern lights!!! the one thing tat im so excited about!! haha... but we dint managed to catch it becoz the clouds have blocked the lights... But well, as shiwang has said, northern lights are for couple.. i shall go back again, with or without my significant other.. haha.. thx shiwang! for consoling mi.. hahahaha....... but we did tried dog sledding and reindeer meat... the meat actually tasted like lamp meat.. have those kind of raw taste which i don really like.. but i have no choice but to finish the food as i was EXTREMEly hungry.. haha... starving over there as there were not much food that we can eat... haha.... dog sledding was fun, but i made a pact to myself, if i were to try dog sledding again, i will slim down first.. the dogs looked very pathetic to drag us thru the snow.. The snow is extremely difficult to thread, it was think and slippery.... poor thing! they need to do this all becuz of human... and i gt a stomach cramps(is the stomach muscles tat cramped!) coz i was trying all kind of positions to help the huskies tread across the snow, trying ways to reduce the overall burden due to the position of my weight. haha.. i think its kind of useless anyway, but well, i tried!

haha... such a big relief..... home sweet home.....



Tuesday, November 24, 2009

Exams!!!

haha.. so fast!! time really zoom past mi! n now its exam period.....


After ard 20 odd days and i will be home.. elated, cant-bear-to-leave but i wanna leave kind of feeling.. a bit obtuse, a bit confused.. haha... with each passing day, im nearer n nearer to home!!!

this lake, this country, this independence, this freedom, this journey..... im glad im here....
their people, their culture, their environment, their beliefs, their natural environment... im glad i have been through all these.... n im more than blessed with my family's support.... and super grateful for my sis to be here!! haha.. even though she's a liability :xxxxx.. jokin lah.. with her ard, felt safer, felt warmer, felt more connected, more reliance...

on the other half of the globe, my mom is all alone... i think thousand words of remorse cant describe the lonely time i put her through... my only solution?.. call her as frequently as possible... i hope she is doing well.....

ok die, shouldnt get myself started again!!! haha.. if not, i will not be able to study tonite! which i aim to finish 2 chp of my bk!! good luck to everyone who is having exams now!!

GO GO GO~~~~~~

















nth is impossible, even if the effort seems futile, life goes on with hope...
if we give up hope, we r giving up our lives..... JIA YOU! :)

Friday, November 20, 2009

my sis cum my fren's surprise parcel!!!! :))))

The day when i went and fetch my sis, on the faithful 19 Nov 09, i caught this two security guards flirting with each other. And i could stand it no more, knowing i need to do something!!!

SO I TOOK THEIR PHOTO.. hhahah...
While waiting for my sis, hmm her flight is kind of late.. haha so i took another photo of Olso Airport, Gardermoen...


It actually doesnt seem tat impressive.. the Airport was quite small, but the waiting departure hall n the duty free shop inside the custom entrance there will be bigger...


AND!~~~ After long Time Waiting!! MY VIP has ARRIVED!! woohoo!!!
n the first thing i said to her was: u look fatter! hahahaha.. actually not really lah.. maybe juz a tiny little bit long nv see my sis!!! JIE JIE!!!!!!!! weeeeeee



After lugging her cui luggage to wait for our local train back to my hostel!! she couldnt wait to pose with the station!!! hahahha....

her tired smile---> jet lag... :p





I received this few days ago, but now then i can blog about it.. Exams ard the corner! actually is on 23, so no longer corner liao.. :p ... IM SUPER SUPER TOUCHED when i received this! *love love... it was from the RSPID-ians... :) really appreciate wat ur have done!!! :) n this is MY FAVORITE PRESENTS TOO!!! hehe...

Nana, i could see that it was ur handwriting!! haha... :) prob coz of the way u wrote my name!! :))





All the things found in the envelope... there are cards with heart-felt words, i guess nth could describe the feeling when i see these!!!



Oh my track shoes!!!! *remind mi that i have not been joggin due to the cold weather.. haha --> gettg fatter :o ... lol!!! n ur actualli rmb the brand!! nana, it shld be ur doing since u r the one who ran the marathon with mi! hahaha



The socks with holes... I WAS LUFFIN Hard at this card!! lol... omg, the socks that has pei mi for so long that it rot until gt holes... OH MY, but i don rmb letting ur discover that my socks have hole!!! *puzzled.. i tot i have always succeeded in concealing it!! ....


N THIS! ultimate!! hahaha... MY SPORTS BRA DESIGN UR OSO KNOW!! secretly, ur have been stalkin mi, n using penetrative eyes to see mi rite....i knew it!!!! hahaha.... I LOVE ALL THESE!!! n those who wrote the messages!! a big big THANKEW!




haha, i like the spongebob!!! and huishan oso drew a woman for mi.. so cute!!!!! I MISS UR!!!




PEIQI! the superwoman! thankew u for ur card!!! n the things u wrote, xie xie ni!!! don busy urself out ok! i still wanna see u when i go back! stay in one piece for me!!! :)



the doggy that xx gave!! so cute!!! :))) reminds mi of Willy.. n his crazy mad barking..



XX, n her card... XX thankew u!! for being such a great fren, n do really take care of urself.. like peiqi, i wanna see u in one healthy piece when i go back!!! stay happy!!! *i saw u takin a lot of quizzes on Fb... haha... :p




N The magazine!! haha.... TOTALLY touched!!!! NANA, im bettg it's u??.. hehe... Thankewwww for all the things n preparin it... haha.. xin ku ni le!!! totally appreciate it!!! i will hao hao keep it until the day i bring it back!!! :)



Salome!!!! I MISS U TOO!!!!! thankew for always being so 'onz' n steady pom pee pee!! haha... always the one to turn to, to do crazy things!! hahaah..:Ppp.. wait for mi to come back before u leave ok!! lets have a catch up cum lao main comm meeting!!!




GUYS!!! thanks for everything! i think im getting back all my motivation to study! everyone, lets work hard!

Special thanks to:

RSPID

Credits to:

Diana-> for coordinating, posting, preparing n threatening mi to reveal my address.. hahaah..
Deb, ChuJie, Salome, Andy, Bingyao--> heyee! lao main comm meeting! set a date!! haha :ppp
Huishan, huitzy--> thanks for makin my rspid session always filled with laughter, n thx for being my fren!! :) MISS UR! n kailin... hahah..:ppppp

Shuyi, Xinyang, Reuben, Huishan(junior)--> Thank you for the best wishes!! shall catch up with ur when shuying, eric and mi are back!!! :)))

Sportbras gang, Chongtiang(im not a KNS), Han Siang(slpin beauty, im at Norway, not North Land!!), JAcq(sweet n cute gal!! => ), Chin Boon's and Tricia's combined messages(scandalous!!) --> hey thanks guys!! for all the messages..


hahha.. my days in oslo, even though limited, im cherishing it now.. my moody bacteria is killed by me!! haha.. thanks deb for ur tag! i will take care one, n i miss messing ur hair up!!! :))


JIA YOU N GOOD LUCK FOR EXAMSSSS!!!! go go go!!!!


Monday, November 16, 2009

just feel like bloggin instead of studyin... :)

haha, life is getting much like stagnant... No progress on my work over here.. haha n im receiving my examinable project tml.. guess this wk will be pretty hectic for mi, when everything is juz coming my way, without stopping!!! :(


but i guess i am a lucky chap.. haha.. my sis is coming!!! thurs!! ahaha.. awaiting to my in house maid's arrival.. wahahha....

i saw something shocking yesterday! my fren gt married!!! OMG!!! but i dint noe whether it is appropriate for me to go n congrat him.. hmm.. haha... but is a bit shocking though.. i am happy for both of them and hope they enjoy eternal bliss :) its hard to find someone u like n who likes u back already, much less to say to get married at this point in life...
watever the reason for the marriage, it still takes effort to make it work.. whether the love blooms from love at first sight, or there is courtship done, marriage is never an easy feat! Although it may seem crazy to get marry at this age, but the thing is, for our generation, everything seems to be pushed back.. for stability, for financial support... But is all this relevant?

in practicality, it matters, but what if both parties are willing to sacrifice and work hard to make this marriage works? nobody knows.. they will have to make their own decision... even as i am saying this, i am still dubious of my future.. haha.. its bleak in terms of relationship... but i am happy enough to just have my family n friends with me.. everything else, will be a bonus.. haha...

i guess wat i have really learn is not to have expectations but to enjoy the process ba.. no matter what, learning and understanding is much more important than the ultimate gain... i have been thinkin also, maybe i will be going into social work.. haha... helping people is a much more enriching experience... haha.. i dowan to end up workin like a machine, nonstop and earning tonnes of money.. that shall be in my consideration for some time.....

anyway, i am gg to panic soon... the textbks that i have asked my sis to send mi.. seems like ages to reach.. oh no!! im gg to exam soon.. n it have reach me.. die.. today is monday already... oh dear! shucks.. shld ask her to bring here instead.. safer... haiz..

at times, i think im too cynical already... hhaha, like to doubt a lot of things... probably a bit childish too? keke... hao de --> they will go under my new year resolution.....

i wish exams could be over soon... i losing some momentum n the motivation... need to keep on running...............................................















~i wish i could grow up faster~~

Saturday, November 7, 2009

while studying... took some time off...

Today is a brand new day!!!!

As i was looking out of my window, i see fogs again.. It has been like that for quite sometimes now. Ever since Norway started snowing, every morning the scene that embraces me is that of the fog shrouding over the mountain in front of my window. Quite dreamy, quite mysterious, and quite nostalgic too... Sometimes, i don't feel like waking up at all, but i couldn't continue sleeping either. Sometimes, i feel like just standing there in front my of window and glance at the sight right ahead of me. Frankly speaking, when i am staring , no thoughts cross my head, and i am suspecting that my brain is going to degenerate soon... haha!!!

Restless nights, dreamless sleep, irregular timing... Somehow, my body clock is disturbed... It wasnt jet lag, it wasnt stress, it wasnt anxiety. I wonder what it was....

As i stared at my work now, I am Wondering the purpose of my exchange. The courses and content taught is the SAME as those taught in NTU. I am not trying to be whiny, but the living expenses is high here, and i Did not learn new stuff over here. So to conclude to myself, i guess the money was spent to buy an experience for myself.. I like this freedom of independence, the ability to travel out to other countries on my own. The freedom of making choices... but i miss the times when my mom nag at me.. the presence of familiar voices and the feeling after a heart-to-heart-talk with my frens.. the feeling of liberation (from stress) is what i miss most!!! i am still trying to find the outlet to let out all my steam, my energy, my frustration, my stress, my mood, my watever!! haha...

to accomplish that, i have came up with an improvisation. Jog on the spot in my room.. :p .. alright, i am crazy, i will disturb my neighbor who is staying one level below me, i will disturb maslyn... But i really need to do something..

Over here, if the negative vibes is too strong, it will leave u often feeling vulnerable and helpless. I don have suicidal tendency one lah, i will at most get moody.. which i am currently in a state of... this sense of moodiness is slowly eating me up. I dont know what to do about it.. n listening to music doesnt help at all!! especially when its playing those sad melodies.. HAiz, to kill my moody-bacteria in me, i shall post some photos...


Ducky by the lake.. Think it was shiwang who asked mi where these ducky will go when winter approaches and the lake turned to ice... Where will they go???






The lonely guy by the lake... Was he waiting for that special someone??





Grey: none of my business

The other two dog's facebook statues: It's complicated...



It was only 3 plus pm over here when i took this photo.. it seems like night time has come..



the foggy lake...




The family on a outing... to the lake....



The birds are all flying to the other side... its really a majestic sight to see them flew all at a go!!



the ice hockey ground.. initially is was covered in stone.. but i am amazed that it was replaced by the ice!!!



Even though it was man-made, it has its own beauty too...



last emo photo before i end off the post.. hahaa...




How amazing it is to be able to capture the time in the picture... therefore the word 'timeless' appears...

Monday, October 26, 2009

the birthday ppt... LOVE IT!! hahah






































































HAhahah this is the slides they made for mi.. super hilarious!!!! LOVE THEM!!! hahahah.... :))