a raining Thurday night... feeling a bit cold, yet warm at the same time...

4.56am Singapore time.
10.57pm Oslo Time.

Today seems like forever. Lecture time seems far away since i woke up at 7.30am oslo time. Ever since the day i reach Oslo, i have been waking before the alarm timing. Probably because these few days, there are few unresolved issues.

My friends who sort of cold shouldered a girl.

She has faults. I must admit we all have faults and if this is the case why cant we forgive her? I was still angry with her yesterday. because she dint approach me, i felt taken for granted.. And i must repent now, for all the things i said abt her.. A moment of anger may lead to a lifetime folly...
Recklessness doesnt solve anything does it?

And there, there is another friend who is at her max. I wont say she is hard hearted but juz tat she has her own principles and thinking. Nobody can force anyone to think otherwise.... But shouldnt we all take a step back, reconsider, view things from the view point of others....

Learn and accept, Learn and adapt, Learn and agree...

Sometimes, through the mistakes made by others, our own flaws sort of amplified. We see what we were blind to in the past, lookin and reflecting our own action, justified ppl's reaction, give ourselves a reason to believe again.

Trust is a very sensitive issue. Can it be repaired once breached? some may give an affirmed no, some may depend on case to case...
I have always believe that trust have to be earned. Once that person earned your trust, there is no way he or she could breach. If not, how can that person in the first place earn that trust?

This trip is indeed rewarding. Looking at the ways people interact and seeing the characteristics displayed, you will wonder how isit that something that could escaped other ppl's eyes and you could see it crystal clear...

Pride... does not worth much when it comes to repairing a friendship.. i have learned to swallow pride to earn back my friendship.. And even more so now, that pride should not be the one ruin the friendship..
Pride is just a shield that we escaped to it hind to hide from the emotions that we are feeling. Barring emotions to other ppl is something tat we all need courage to do.. But stopping ourselves from feeling anything is worse than hiding behind our pride.. Is it cowardice? No, i don think so. It is just a way we protect ourselves from getting hurt..

But to stop feeling anything, this is a bit cruel.. without listening to what the other have to say... Everyone is granted a 2nd chance to change, always. Any judgement without hearings is just unfair to both the plaintiff and the defendant.. So why cant we all listen?

Friendship is juz like a maze.. you dunno who you will see at the corners or even along the way... Some ppl just wanna search for the right friends and they keep lookin for the way out, missing out the sceneries and the true friends whom they may made along the way....
Some, even searching for a long time, nv find someone whom they can keep as friend... to me, friendship is a maze, and it is amazing to have good and true friends who really stick by, in the hard and tough times and the sweet parts of our lives....


reflecting on the past, what have i lost, what have i found, i have no regrets or watsoever. I am happy with whom i have found and i will keep what i have found....