okie, time to update you guys and shun bian do a little self reflection here...
well, my ii is finally coming to an end.. I am not sure if i shld be happy or dreading it.. Happy that i am finally leaving such a shitty place, or dreading it coz i cant bear to leave my colleagues!!! hahah.. sometimes, people are really strange.. They are the nicest person to you when you are about to leave.. JUST LIKE MY SUPERVISOR! he said he will be bringing me onboard vessel on my last week. And just ytd, when i wanna request to learn more about certification, he also volunteered to teach me.. hmm.. Is my appraisal gg to be bad? coz i heard that my supervisor had, on several occasions, gave bad appraisals. (ARH, CRAP! if anything happens, i will just see what to do) ... Don really like my supervisor anyway.. the high and mighty air he has got when he is walking... hmmm...
So a little food for thought... Is it really true that with greater power, at management post, the most careful you will be, and thus, the more people you will end up not helping at all? Actually i knew the reality is as such, in order to survive, you wont help. With greater power, comes greater responsibilty. I nv deny this, but i rather chose to think that it is with greater power, that humanity is buried. The real character of a person will be magnified. Is that how we shld get our subordinates to learn to us? Like little nice puppy?.. so that they post any threats to your own position in the company? I beg to differ. I guess i am trying to just seek some justice. Being a Librian, i seek fairness. I think sometimes, when your colleagues or subordinates are really capable, they shld be the one sitting at my position instead. Let them led. If they really is capable, they will be able to lead, but if they resort to unscrupulous means to climb the corporate ladder, not many will/want to follow, and will there be an effective and good leadership?
Some people are just cut out for paper work, PR skills, maybe thats why they are able to climb to management position. But isnt it a pity? How others with more capabilities werent recognised?...
hmm.. shall not think about work anymore...
08.07.10: On my way back from work, i saw this rainbow that spread across the IRs.. there was a spur of the moment impulse to just alight and take photos. But then, i was really too sick to do so.. As the bus turned somewhere along orchard, i saw the rainbow again!
This time, it was a full rainbow that spread across the huge sky, creating a somewhat skyline effect.. It was super nice! I think the rainbow has given me some hope, some little answers to questions that i was thinking/reflecting on the bus. But somehow, i think rainbow brings about a sense of optimism! so i have decided that this shld be way for me to end my ii!